Sudden Urge

Wow...It's so weird...I just got back from work and going through my daily checkage of blogs and although I thought of posting something today, I didn't feel like it...Until a couple of minutes ago when I was listening to a new song. As soon as I heard the bridge of the song, it was like an instinct that I should post it. As for now, I will keep the artist anonymous (it took me 5 tries to spell that word right -.-''). Yea...For certain reasons I don't wanna say anything xP. If you figure out the artist through the lyrics...Hehe ^-^''. Anyway, without further ado:

中文:

一.让我保护你
二.让我照顾你
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
四.接受这命运
五.永远不分离

Translation:
One. Let me protect you
Two. Let me take care of you
Three. All these request, don't take them as a game
Four. Accept this destiny
Five. Never separate

Yea...There you go...It's nothing spectacular right? But it reaches out to me somehow so I really like haha. On another note, I bought my sister hair elastics today. I decided on the plain ones apart from the fuzzy ones...Because, well, I thought it would be weird having fur like things in your hair xP. It was pretty cute...She found out that I bought them for her and she sneaked in my room and gave me a hug ^^; Ah, baby sister...Better treasure these last few months with her before I leave...

OH, on ANOTHER note, I'm moving Saturday v.v''. I wanted to go to my river one last time before I leave, but I still haven't gotten the chance to...It's a little depressing. It's been just a busy week though...Done English Orals though so that's good...Gotta get started on my ToK paper v.v. *sigH* IB IS A BITCH ON A STICK. Haha, almost done xP...I'll probably go to my river on Friday and just enjoy it one last time...Okay...Just like my sudden urge to write this, I just got a sudden urge to stop and do some homework...So until next time...Later days =P.

"Poppy Love"

"When we were in grade eight, we promised each other that we'd get married at the age of 28 if neither of us were married by then"..."We met in grade six during patrol"..."He asked me out in grade eight and in high school he asked me to be his girl again"..."I moved, but this x boyfriend kept on popping up every couple of years"..."Three years ago I came back to Calgary"..."We were both career driven, jaded and unable to accept each other's feelings"..."Our friendship rekindled"..."Before we knew it, we were on a one way plane to Hawaii"..."It's hard to not fall in love in Hawaii especially being held in the ocean with a full rainbow"..."He whispered, 'I love you' thinking I was asleep...I didn't want to ruin the moment so I pretended I was asleep. My heart was smiling"..."He took off his necklace from under his shirt that has a ring on it and said, 'I'll put this ring on that finger one day.' as he pointed to my ring finger"..."We decided to go back just as quickly as we decided to leave"..."It was the end of 2006 that our lives took another drastic change"..."We decided to go to Orlando to spend New Years"..."It was our first time in Disney World!"..."I got an important text message telling me to go back home"..." 'Come home right away'...'Your brother Josh has been in an accident'...'He passed away'..."

Now before you idiots start questioning about my sexuality, this has nothing to do with me. These were some exerts that I read from a post in a bus shelter when I was waiting for the bus today. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish it before my bus came so that last part was where I ended up.

I think this is a thing for the contest on Vibe for the 98,000 dollar wedding. I saw these two running around Anderson station a few days ago posting these things around. They looked like they were in their mid - late twenties and although I wanted to read it then, I wasn't able to. I was just sitting there waiting for the bus today when I saw it again and decided to read it. It seems so magical and fairytale like I almost don't want to believe it. But the depth and the emotion that it's written with has pretty much convinced me.

As I sat on the bus looking at the flurry that came down so gently, I thought about how I'm always off daydreaming about romance. Never did I think any of the things that I imagined would be true...Especially the soul mates thing. This thing gave me some hope, but at the same time I'm afraid to get my hopes up on anything now because too often, it just comes crashing down. Is it too good to be true? That someone can end up with the person that they liked in elementary? I dunno, but I keep thinking about it...Every time I think about it, I force myself to think of something else because I don't want to get my hopes up. But today, I was almost in a state of shock after reading that...Thing. Maybe it CAN happen...Maybe it will happen...These words ran through my mind as I rode the bus and after getting off and walking home, two dogs started barking, snapping me out of my daze. Maybe it's for the best...That I don't think about something that has such a low probability of happening...
Secret #18: If fairy tales can come true, I want mine to be with her...

Hug

Hmm...Don't think I've posted anything with an actual topic for a while. It's been really busy lately, but things have slowed down a LITTLE bit. IA, EE, WL all out of the way. Now we have TOK, CAS and Oral exams to really deal with before we finish off with the exams. It should be okay from now on though...Only thing that was a little discerning was the EE, but that went pretty well if I say so myself. Gonna try to relax this weekend a little bit...Then have to pull myself together for the rest of the year so I can get into UT xP. OHH on another note, I just got a letter of conditional acceptance for UBC today. It made things a little comforting for me because that'll be my second choice if I don't get in UT. I'm a little nervous about getting my English Diploma though...Hopefully it stays above 90 so the five courses that I selected will all be above 90. That way I might get some scholarships xP. Okay...I'm gonna stop talking about this now...Haha...I didn't even really plan on that...Just kinda came out as I typed.

Okay, anyway, what I've been wanting to talk about. Lately, the feeling of wanting a hug keeps on floating around in my mind. I don't really know why, but sometimes I get the urge to hug really badly and it's really uncomfortable. I never got into the hugging scene until grade 10 and even then, most of the hugs I've given are to one person. I can't explain it, but I really don't like asking for hugs. I guess it's not a big deal, but being the traditional thinker that I am, every hug I give I try to do it...With...Something special I guess. Being so close to someone is a special thing...Doing a half ass job on it just doesn't seem right. That's one of the biggest reasons why I'm so hesitant on hugging anyone I guess...Especially if I wanted to give someone a hug, but they didn't want it...I feel dejected and basically really bad in the end....

Yea, so I've been having these really frustrating urges to hold someone, no one in particular. I can't figure out why...I never really cared about it much before...Just recently...I dunno...Maybe it's because I keep seeing people so vulnerable and I just want to be there for them...Protect them...But I can't say that's the complete reason because I feel like I'm missing something in my life. Maybe I want a girlfriend...But at the same time, currently, I don't have any relationships with anyone that the feeling is mutual. I guess I'm just being impatient...Wait it out? I guess that's really all I CAN do...*sigH*...*Big sigH*....*BIGGER SIGH*. I think seeing so many people getting together also has something to do with it...I guess I'm kinda envious...Maybe jealous? I dunno...I don't want to think about this anymore, but I can't stop myself...

My love life...Always been so weird...So one sided...I just want to spend a day with someone that I care about, someone that cares about me, and do everything...Sit by my river, drive around anywhere, go on a ride at some amusement park. I think I'm just lonely...I don't feel like I'm needed because everyone already has someone and it's causing me to feel like I don't have a purpose. Especially yesterday, when I kinda lost hope...On her...In me...It's not anyone's fault really...I guess I depended too much on that one idea. It's okay though...Everything will be okay, they always end up okay. Fuck...

It's okay Jak...Just take it one bit at a time. Let's see...What to do...First thing on my list..."Go to bed"...Hmm I guess that's kinda important...Next, "Go to school tomorrow so go to bed." Hmm, that seems kinda important too...Okay...One more "to do thing"...Let's see..."GO TO BED YOU IDIOT!" Well...Pretty sure you guys know what I'm getting at...Haha. Alrighty then, this is delta omega Baka Me, passing out at 12:57AM.
Secret #17: I wish I knew...I wish she knew...

Music Player Fixed

Okay, so I just found out today that my player is crap in internet explore, but by playing around with it for about 10 minutes, I think it's fixed. I had no clue that it only showed up to 10 songs and had this big ugly gray block on the left side of the player. I mean I had some ideas that it was funny when I accessed it in school a while back, but it didn't really bother me until a few days ago Ahmad said she could only see up to 10 songs -.-''. Anyway, it's fixed now. Sorry for anyone who actually listens to these songs xP and hope you enjoy them. Another reason why Firefox > I.E.

I have to go do some homework, but hopefully I'll be able to post something soon when things slow down a little. Until then...Later days =P.

Valentine's Day

February 14. The "love day". Valentine's here again and once again I spend it with my self and my computer in my room. I really don't mind it now. For the past many years of my life, I've always wondered why I couldn't get a girlfriend. Being the hopeless romantic that I am, I would picture all these amazing things that I would do just to see her smile or laugh. Especially on Valentine's...The thing is: I've never been very confident when it came to girls, so most of the time, if not all, I would either miss the chance or just walk right past it even though I know. Being not confident is one thing, but I think the other one is I don't want to play with people's hearts. Most of the time, if not all, I don't start liking someone, just because "they're the hottest thing on the surface of the Sun!" Sure, it's refreshing to see girls that are put together well, but over the years, that factor just faded more and more. I think I might be just savoring every last bit of my effort and mind for that one special person. Hopefully she'll appreciate it when I decide to let her know, but until then...Meh, I don't really know if she feels the same way...It doesn't really matter I guess, my intentions are pure, my thoughts are true...Just gotta do what I know is right. Even if she doesn't feel the same way back, I won't mind because having her as a close friend is already more than I can ask for...No that's not true. I will mind, it'll probably feel like my heart shattering into a million pieces...What I mean is...Even if that happens, it's the friendship, that everything is built on, that will be treasured for a life time.

This little short week has been quite interesting...I found out two girls like me...I got a card for Valentine's and it's really hard to not do the same thing back because I don't like hurting anyone, but I'm not gonna do anything stupid to lead them on. Haha...Looking back on it, every time I found out a girl liked me...That I found as a friend, I would take 10 steps back and let everything cool over until she moved on...I guess during that time, it probably hurt them even more...So new approach! I'll treat them like a friend no matter what happens...This way, the healing process might be a bit quicker...

Lastly, I wanna put up a song...It's by 王力宏. A duet with Selina. Fang sent it to me a while back as one of the choices to her duet that's coming up. I didn't really enjoy it that much to begin with. But for some reason, I kept on listening to it. As I listened to it more and more, I began to like it more and more. Roughly translated, the song's name is "You're a Song in My Heart". The lyrics are simple, but it speaks to me. Simple love song. The version that I'm gonna put up is me singing Leehom's part...That's right~ I'm finally gonna put up a song of me singing. (Guess singing wasn't as easy to give up as I thought =P) I hope it's not too bad...I recorded it several times before getting it right. It's no where near the original, but I think I tried harder than Leehom, so that's all that matters! Right? Right? Yeah...Haha...I sang this song with Fang in my thoughts, so it'll be right to dedicate this song to her. Hope you like it...If you ever listen to it...Maybe someday you can complete the song =P. Look for track 12~ You're a Song in My Heart...Hey, look at that, 12's my favorite number! Haha...Until next time...Have a Happy Valentine's everyone.

Change Yourself

*sigH* Parents are at it again...That lasted almost two whole months v.v''. I'm pretty much used to it now...Don't expect too much from them, don't get too disappointed. Only thing that I worry about is how my sister will grow up in this kind of environment. Sometimes I think about it and it seems there's no way out. How can people change after so many years of being who they are? Is it possible? Nothing's impossible, but the degree of difficulty is getting pretty high on this one. I dunno...I think you can change if you want to at least. It's hard yea, but if you're willing to make a conscious effort, then you'll be able to succeed. Just like perfecting anything in life, you have to be willing to accept your mistakes and adjust in order to become better. Without that ability to see past yourself, see past your past, nothing will ever happen.

Anyway, my respect for the singer/song writer, Taiwanese superstar, Wang Leehom has been increasing more and more lately. His style of music, which he calls "chinked out", has a mixture of oriental feel with the western pop. Mixing his talent regarding west and east music, he's been influencing the Asia world in huge ways. His thought process to changing the world is one that should be admired. You can see this just by how he incorporated the prerogative term "chink" into his music style in order to make it more acceptable in the world. And really, what is chink, but just another word with a connotation. And words can mean good or bad depending on how it's used and how other people perceive it. So his way of using this term in a positive manner can surely bring out positive receptions from his fans as well as from the rest of the world.

Okay, I wanted to post up one of his newer songs, "Change Yourself". I translated the lyrics this time because I wanted everyone to enjoy it. It sends out a good message and many times, it has picked me up. It'll be song #11 on my play list. Hope you all enjoy it...Peace v-.-

Change Yourself

Come on

Woke up this morning
And looking at my reflection in the mirror.
Suddenly realized my hairstyle and turned a little kuso.
A little bit of change,
Makes a big difference.
Our strength can change the world.

Been a little annoyed recently.
Lately I’ve been feeling pretty down.
I want to shout out loud every time I watch the news.
But I don’t have any swear words.
Everybody only knows how to relax.
I changed myself and noticed a big difference.

*Friends from the new generation
We need to work hard
Everybody yell
Na na na na na

I can change the world,
Change myself.
Change anilities, change the pettiness.
Have to keep on trying, trying
Never give up.
In order to change the world.
Come on, change yourself.

Woke up this morning,
Had a bit of a headache.
Maybe because there’s too much CO₂ and not enough O₂.
A little bit of change,
Makes a big difference.
Our warmth can change the world.

As long as you represent yourself
Without any political stands
Actually, this world has made me quite worried
Must adjust ourselves
Never knew so little could add the finishing touch

* Bridge then Chorus (x2)

According to Plan...?

Made the badminton team...Dunno what I'm going to play, don't really care v.v''. It would be better if I had a little more passion about the game, but as of this moment...I have more important things to worry about...

So I've been planning on going back to China this summer for the past 4 years now and my dad just asked me if I could delay this plan for another year. Now, knowing me, I would have just told him no to begin with because that's the person I thought I was. But last night when he asked me...I didn't feel the usual rage of feelings explode, but the tiny hint of practicality and disappointment sunk in. Didn't really sulk, just asked him to give me a couple of days to think it through...

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Okay, so I just came back from like an hour break talking to my grandma and I guess it's decided that I won't be going to China this summer. I really wanted to go...See my grandparents and friends again before we all head off for university...Guess it's not gonna happen. When I go back next year, they won't be in the little town that I grew up in. Most of them are headed to the city, so I guess this is it...Ah well...Maybe sometime in the distant future, our paths will cross again. I'm a little disappointed, but there's nothing I can do. Don't want to talk my parents into spending so much money on me again...Especially since they just bought a house. University's coming up too and I should be looking to save up for that as much as possible. *sigH* responsibilities. Sometimes, I wish I can just put that aside for a while and do what I want.

It's a little depressing, but I feel that whenever I have something planned, it never goes the way I imagine it. A lot of times, it's pushed me to to not think about much so I don't get the disappointment of getting my hopes up then getting them crushed again. However, if there's anything I want to go according to plan right now is my trip to Vancouver this May and getting into UT. Please...If there's anything that can happen to me, let this be it.

*sigH* just wanna get outta here...

Ugh...I wanna say something...Can't quite put it to words...Naw...I shouldn't think about it...Too good to be true? GAHHH...STFU JAK, STFU.

Anyway, I'm rambling about nothing now v.v''. My thoughts aren't quite coordinated at the moment, so I guess I'm gonna go. Peace v-.-
Secret #16: She doesn't like anyone...Will she grow to like me? I really hope so...Life would be a lot better if she were to be there beside me all the time.

OH, I just remembered I wanted to post a few songs...Yea...It's been a while...I haven't been able to find anything that REALLY stuck out...So I've decided to just put songs up that I like. Screw meaningfulness v.v''...Naw, I'm just being dumb, probably each song that I put still have some meaning behind it...It always does or else I wouldn't want to listen to it so much. The first two are pretty funny, the third one KINDA speaks my mind...They're all Chinese. I'm not gonna bother translating. Meh, too lazy...Hope you like the music or beat since most of you can't understand it xP.

Relax and Concentrate

Well...I wanted to post something before nerding it up with my chemistry, so here I am once again, writing to myself as the music of 发如雪 plays in the background. Pretty relaxing...I really want to sing it, but I don't think I can. It's tough for me...As sad as it may be xP.

I've been thinking of going snowboarding again lately...I've snowboarded about...Let's see...Once in my life, but I enjoyed it quite a bit. The snowboarding was pretty fun. Got a little repetitive and hurty after hours and hours of going down the mountain, but it gets my mind off of everything else. I think I mostly wanna go is because of the atmosphere there...I remember when I was about 8, I feel in love with the snow. I came to Canada when I was 7 during the middle of winter so everything was already covered with white, but it quickly melted as the months passed by. I can remember it so clearly...Winter of 1998, I was on winter break and I was in the little basement apartment that my family lived in, staring out the window, waiting for the year's first snow fall. As the snowflakes started floating down, I ran outside and started rolling around...It was a happy time. For some reason, this love for winter has died down over the years, but recently, it has come back to me. The atmosphere and mood that winter sets in is so calming and refreshing. I wanna go up to the hills and enjoy that peace and quiet again. Even if I'm not snowboarding, just sitting on the massive hill, board at my feet, wind in my face, watching random people pass me without any care in the world. It's a great feeling...Haha...I kinda sat here for a couple of minutes and started day dreaming...Kinda imagined Fang sitting beside me on the hill...The thought of that made things more at ease.

今天是中国的新年。。。本来昨天想写一些关于“新年快乐”的东西但是一直没找到时间。好久没跟奶奶爷爷说话了。我因该给他们拜个年。。。下次吧。最近情况还可以。没有很多事情发生除了写我的文章以外，就是打羽毛球了。今天早上去练习了，打的还不错。我一直没发现但是比去年来看真的进步了很多。去年跟那些人打只能得到四，五分但是今年分数跟他们一直很近，还赢了几次。。感觉不错，不错。希望可以在学队上比赛。除了音乐以外，羽毛球对我是一个很有放松感的东西。要是进不了学队的话。。。我会对自己很失望。

我朋友二月二十号要唱歌。。。为了一个。。叫什么来？哎~~中文好垃圾。。。就是。。。唱歌就行了。。。打中文好费劲。我很想听她唱歌，觉得她对音乐那部分满有财的。希望以后她可以给我送几首自己唱的歌。想到这件事，其实很就都没有听到她说话的声音了~~要是有时间的话一定会想办法跟她连。。那个用话筒的那个东西。。呵呵，好丢人=)

哦~~对了，今天跟老师说了一些关于多大的东西。。。看来真的是一个比较有名士的学校。她觉得选这个学校非常好。听她说，所有她知道去那得人都很喜欢。。。所以吗，现在我越来越想去了。一定要努力，得到路数倦。 好的不写中文了。。。丢够脸了。因该有很多写错的字~~哎，不管了。。。管也没用，水平就这样吗，要求不能太高吗。。。可以写这么多就不错了。。对吧？对吧？恩，我也觉得。。。呵呵。

Okay...I'm gonna get working on my chemistry...All that Chinese typing took a load on my brain...Until next time...Later days =P.

Mr. Tooth

Okay...I think I have to explain the picture...I was looking for a picture of a tooth model...You know the ones that move around and act creepy? Yea, you know what I'm talking about, don't pretend you don't. Anyway, I came across this and I had to have it...It made me laugh...Kinda...

Yoshi! (Not the colourful dinosaur v.v'', it's "okay" in Japanese...I think...) Moving on, today badminton tryouts began...I'm so out of freaking shape it hurts me. So practice starts at 7:15, meaning I have to be outside by 6:30 at the latest to catch my bus so I can make there...Yea...Woke up at 6:19...Looked at my watched and kinda stared at it for then seconds or so before freaking out, throwing on some random clothes and booking it outside...It was cold at 6:26 in the morning...My big burnt marshmallow coat kept me warm though, kinda. So I got to school at...I can't remember and basically the tryouts began. Senior team this year, so I think it's gonna be harder than last. I barely made it last year, but with constant practice, I think I'm getting better, but still got destroyed by Lo -.-''. It was very disappointing, but I think the main reason was because I had no energy left by the end of the hour and a half...Freaking pathetic. Stupid school, sucking out all my energy and time to go work out and be in shape...*Mutters*...I dunno if I can get my endurance back up to where it used to be, but hopefully I can make doubles of some sort so there is less running around and more random flailing of the racket...w0oot.

After the intense morning session of badminton, I went to print out my EE...Freaking two copies meaning 4x pages of writing and crap...What a waste of paper, especially now that I found out I have to make it "pretty" for "presentation points". SCREW YOU IB! Smart people should not have to deal with appearance! You get to choose one! Get too greedy and you'll end up with nothing! Bunch of bakas...

Speaking of which...(Not bakas...Appearance) I got my braces off! Yay for retainers v.v''. These things hurt like mothers and it always feels like I'm chewing on plastic when I have them in my mouth...I wonder why...OH YEA! It's because I AM chewing on bloody plastic -.-''. Can't complain though...They're a lot more convenient than braces...I can remove them and produce a smile that bedazzles everyone...Just kidding losers -.-''. Theoretically, a person without braces should look better, in reality...It doesn't really make a difference. I am born who I am, not gonna bitch about my genes with I can't do anything about it. Haha, I started watching this really weird Anime...It's about this "ugly" girl that goes to live with these four "gorgeous creatures" (Anime guys) and they have to make her into a lady. If they succeed, they get their rent for free, if they don't they have to pay triple the rent. Intense huh? Naw, it's not really, funny though...Don't think I have seen more nosebleeds from girls in ANY Anime let alone two episodes.

Anyway, I think I have a test tomorrow...Yes chemistry test...A subject that I actually care about...Hmm, I should study...14 minutes! I will start studying in 14 minutes! Until then...I will...Go play something....Oooo, I know, I will go watch that weird/funny Anime! It should make everything better until I have to open up my text book and do a couple hours of cramming...Crap have to talk to Edwards tomorrow...I hope he doesn't comment too much on my EE...If I have to redo that thing again...I will shoot someone in the foot. Yoshi! (Again...Not the colourful dinosaur) I am going to shit away the next 11 minutes before doing anything productive...Until next time...Later days =P.

Finally

Okay! Like I said in my last post, I was gonna post something soon and I guess today's the day. A lot happened today...Well it's midnight now, so I guess yesterday xP.

First, I gotta say, the Super bowl was a very satisfying experience. The "Perfect Patriots" never came to be as the Brady Bunch went down to the other half of the Manning Bros. Inc. Just shows how far resiliency can carry someone. The underdogs, New York Giants, took the show on the biggest stage of them all, playing an almost perfect game in order to take down the 18-0 Patriots. I say that's pretty impressive. Kinda gave me some hope in pursuing what I want...Not to give up and reach for the "goal". The thing that, at the moment, I want so badly, that every time that I picture it not happening, it feels like my heart breaking into a million pieces...

So, I went to watch Lee's speech performance today...To be honest, the reason I went was because, oddly, selfishly, whateverly you wanna call it, I imagined that maybe if I went, it could have made her performance better than usual. Silly thought, but none the less, I put aside my EE and got on the bus for an one and a half hour trip to Mount Royal College. In the end, it was worth it. She performed brilliantly, resiting the verses for Beatrice from Shakespeare with emotion and passion. It made Shakespeare's work so much more than what I had thought before. More humane, more...Real for me. Like always, she was hard on herself in the end, but honestly, I thought she was great, everyone else thought she was great. If you read this, give yourself a pat on the back, you deserve it. Her mom drove me home afterwards...Everything seems a little more relaxed now. I find her mom entertaining and for some odd reason, easy to relate and speak to. Usually, I'm not good with parents, but I guess like mother like daughter, it's easy to have some laughs with them...Feel natural I suppose.

The year is slowly winding down. With each passing day, the bittersweet feeling of departure sets in. I dunno, I know I want to leave this hell hole, leave everything that's happened to me so far, but the attachments that has been set in place between those couple close friends will be hard to give up...Going to have to eventually and it'll be just like all the other times before, with exception of one. We'll all slowly grow apart, eventually end up talking with each other every few years, maybe never. It's the reality. Distance does horrible things to relationships, but in the end, I guess it's the good times together that really matter...

I can finally say that I've moved on...I won't lie, it's not a complete disappearance of feelings, but the it's the closest I've gotten to date. I'll be able to see her as just a friend and be content with it soon...I guess I just realized that it's not meant to be. Being honest with myself, I think a lot of it has to be the idea that I can't have what I want. But that special person in my life, the one that always has been there for me, has made me realize loving someone should be both ways...I think I've always known that, but now, I can finally see the line between love and friendship. I can understand it a little better at least.

Going back to "goals" for a moment, I found a goal lately. I'm more determined than ever to get into UT, and my motivation is for that special someone in my life. I don't really know how to express what I feel in words, but no matter what time it is, no matter where we are, it just seems that whenever we talk, I'm myself. I always found that so challenging, to be myself without caring, but with her, I can. Maybe it's because we have so much in common. It's a different type of commonality than I have with Du. With Du, we have common goals and common interest, but the way we approach those goals are very different, maybe that's why we argue so much. On the other hand, I think the arguing just made our relationship a little closer, haha...Okay back to the topic...Wow...It's been a really personal post...I wonder if...Okay back to topic! With her, our commonality resides in our approach to things. We might not have similar goals and interests, but the way we look at life, the way we approach people are so similar that I think it's almost as if she can read my mind. It's just plain amazing, for a lack of better words. For the first time in months...Maybe years, I can say that I'm happy. When I think of her, I smile a little bit...A sincere smile.

Okay...I think I've written quite a bit on this post...I wanna dedicate two verses to that friend of mine though...First one is from the band, Rocket Boys...(Got this from the Anime, Beck, which by the way, Du is watching now, w0oot.) One line in the lyric really shows how I feel.

"Follow me...Baby, I won't let you go if you believe in me."

Second one is one that I thought up last night when I was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I dunno why, it just came to my mind all of a sudden and I decided that it didn't sound too bad. (I think I might write a song based on it later...If I ever find the ability to write nice lyrics.) Oh, by the way, it's in Chinese haha...

"七年前，睁开眼，你出现在我的面前。。。七年后，闭上眼，看见你那张微笑的脸。"

Okay, I'm pretty sure I missed something that I had in mind, but I guess I can't get to it now. Maybe on my next post though xP...Until next time...Later days =P.
Secret #15: Fang...I can't wait to see you again...No matter what, I'll find a way.

Coming Soon

I haven't posted anything in a while, but I'll start to post more soon...Almost done my EE...3973 words in the end, so now I just have to revise it, get a table of contents, abstract and bibliography...Probably finish that up tomorrow...Well Sunday, so I guess today, but not really >.>...Yes, I am tired...Post more after I'm actually done.

On another note, 从现在开始我想用中文来写一些我的网录。。。因该从下次开始吧。不太清楚。但是我的中文还是不是很顺，所以会打错很多东西。 啊，不管了，反正大部分人都看不懂。。呵呵。我说不定写网录的时候，随便写一些中文因为要是只用中文来写的话，对我来说还是非常难。。所以呢，得慢慢的来。好了先写到这吧。下次再见。Peace v-.-.